I am not a member of your wonderful emerging church, but follow you through your e-mail subscription. The idea of renew is a great thought. I am an old retired guy who was recently set free suddenly from the personality disorder of People Pleasing, Passivity, Conflict Avoidance, and Legalism. It has been wonderful. The down side is that all of a sudden all my emotions that used to be suppressed have poured out into the open. I was always in control. One day in a parking lot, two drivers took the two best spaces available. This time, I went into a rage, and sadly, one of the drivers heard part of my improper speech. I was stunned. I have found out that being set free, seems to mean I have to deal with honest emotions for a change. It has led me to fighting things I never had to fight before--I restrict what I view on the computetr, but then the temptaion to look at wrong images grabbed me. I have been pretty successful with that, but I faile a couple of times. I got acqauinted with some people in a Christian prayer and messaging ministry. Then one lady in particular, and another in a lessor way came on to me. It is ridiculous. I am 73. This is what happens when you are 17. I felt that surge of temptation for the first time.
Am I really free? Or did the Lord take away one problem to show me a deeper one.
Will you pray for this old guy to be pure and holy in all my activities? I feel dumb. I am too old for this stuff. Thank you.
I love your ministry. I cannot attend, but I pray for all of you every day.
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I am not a member of your wonderful emerging church, but follow you through your e-mail subscription. The idea of renew is a great thought. I am an old retired guy who was recently set free suddenly from the personality disorder of People Pleasing, Passivity, Conflict Avoidance, and Legalism. It has been wonderful. The down side is that all of a sudden all my emotions that used to be suppressed have poured out into the open. I was always in control. One day in a parking lot, two drivers took the two best spaces available. This time, I went into a rage, and sadly, one of the drivers heard part of my improper speech. I was stunned. I have found out that being set free, seems to mean I have to deal with honest emotions for a change. It has led me to fighting things I never had to fight before--I restrict what I view on the computetr, but then the temptaion to look at wrong images grabbed me. I have been pretty successful with that, but I faile a couple of times. I got acqauinted with some people in a Christian prayer and messaging ministry. Then one lady in particular, and another in a lessor way came on to me. It is ridiculous. I am 73. This is what happens when you are 17. I felt that surge of temptation for the first time.
Am I really free? Or did the Lord take away one problem to show me a deeper one.
Will you pray for this old guy to be pure and holy in all my activities? I feel dumb. I am too old for this stuff. Thank you.
I love your ministry. I cannot attend, but I pray for all of you every day.
Sincerely,
Frank
Hey Frank...thank you for your authenticity and honesty. I will be praying for you-please continue to pray for us.
Thank you!
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